06 December 2010
Snapping is never a positive experience. I keep reminding myself to suck it in and swallow whatever I want to say which I know is not good at the moment. I still need this job so I better be good.
I just wonder how long I can hold on to this. It's not fun anymore. It hasn't been fun at all for the past few years. I don't know where to derive motivation apart from the obvious - getting salary every end of the month for the service rendered.
I just feel the need to change my environment. I am looking for lateral positions within the company now. I think I better act soon because the longer I stay where I am, the more toxic I feel as a person. That can't be good. Besides, I am overworked and underpaid. I think I deserve more than that. A recognition, perhaps or increase in salary if they don't want to promote me?
I hope God gives me more patience (and strength) to go through this misery. I know the right opportunity will come. I just pray it comes soon! And with that, I just pray for more patience... I think I badly need it.