17 January 2013

Leaving The Past And Moving Forward

Life was not difficult for me and my family while I was growing up. We had most of what good life offered. We had nannies who followed us around. We ate good food. We always had gifts under the Christmas tree and my parents were always available as hosts to events in the village or town or as sponsors to some sports team.  We enjoyed the privilege of going to private schools and universities. We wore fine and branded clothing and stuff. We frequent the malls every week. Our lifestyle was lavish and I would be a hypocrite if I said I didn't enjoy that kind of life. We thought it would last. We were wrong.

Ever since my father passed away, all that we thought would last faded away. The riches? Gone. The lavish lifestyle is no longer existent. It hurts but our lives turned upside down. We were facing life in a different angle and it wasn't very pretty to see it in a different colored spectacle. We had seen life as rosy but the view from where we are now is bleak.

To this day, I have learned to swim against the current of my life's troubled past. Most times, I feel the invisible hand pulling me downwards but I always find myself fighting back. It is hard but my resolve is to be able to stand up again and regain the legacy that my father had built for us, even for just a mere fraction of what he had established for his children.

That is why I am looking forward to 2013 because I know that this year will be a better year for my family. All the struggles we have been through for many years since my dad died will be a thing of the past because it is our moment to shine. There are still obstacles along the way but I feel we will be victorious because we are one in this effort. We are all leaving the past and moving forward because that is what my father would love to see. And God the Father will only want the best for His children.


4 comments :

  1. Hello Po..

    Your post is very touching and heartbreaking in a way.. Looking at it at the bright side, still you are very blessed to enjoy that kind of lifestyle.

    Everything happens for good and for a reason.

    Thanks

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  2. Thanks sis Cyra. I missed you in the blogosphere na ah.

    Well, sometimes, God has to shake us up a bit to learn the beauty of simple living. It's not all material stuff. What matters most is the fact that I have my family who supports each other. All the material wealth that we used to have are just that - material. I think this time, I will value the intangible wealth I have amassed throughout the years, loving/happy family and great friends who are always there by my side :)

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  3. I'm so sorry about your situation. I am having a hard time getting over my past. I currently found out my husband who works out of state has gotten another girl pregnant and she's now living at his place. My heart is broken. When people say get over it and he's not worth it, they don't understand that my life was tied into his life for a long time. How can I just forget? I have so many memories with him. I'm still having nightmares about it.

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  4. Anne Montemayor-Gonzales12 February 2013 at 14:03

    Just keep the faith and trust in the Lord! The best is yet to come. Claim that 2013 will be a great year for you :)

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